Learn to say when?

This is kind of silly. I accidentally 45 study points... again. Or not yet but they are on the way. I mean, I'm studying them atm. The three 10 point courses and the thesis. I mean, this isn't even that much fun anymore. These accidentally xx points. Should learn to say when and not overflow my calendar with this and that.

Other problem is that I can't really just let things go as they want. I mean, I try harder and harder all the time. Even if the course is just some stupid thing I have to get pass.

Stupid.

And then again. After trying and failing I may still end up accepting the ok result.. But hey! At least I've tried even if I failed!

Blaah!

-Vierna-

Writing...

I didn't remember it feels so good to write. Just write about things, about thoughts and things. Or just write. Write a story, poem or just something. Like this.. Nothing too much to say but still it feels so good to just write. Even if no one ever reads it. But that isn't the point in writing, isn't it. It is about telling something, important or not. It is about saying something out loud and not just keeping it inside. Even if no one ever knows about it. It is still out of ones mind.

It is out in one way at least. 'Cause there is this thing about writing. When one writes something, one has to think it more and one has to make it in to a from others can understand it. Making something like that makes the thing more clear to the writer too. Usually, at least. Of course it doesn't work always, nor to everyone. It works usually for me. Tho haven't kept a diary for a long time like I used to have. Funny thing about it is that I wrote so much more when I had so much to do. So much to be done, I was so busy I didn't have really moments I couldn't think things I should do right now. Tho I think even if it was really hard, I loved it...

Being abel to do things one love and care about is one of the most important things in the world. It makes one to want to live more, try more. I loved to make my chemistry exercises, read my biology book and even do my math things..back then I didn't always like it but that is just part of life, isn't it? Now I'm studying something very important to me, something I want to learn more about. Last autumn went grate. I couldn't wish for better grades... Now I only have to hope that I wont become too arrogant. That would make future very difficult. 'Cause I think being little bit unsure of ones skills is better than being too arrogant. One who isn't completely sure how good one really is makes the one study more. It makes one try harder and harder. One who is too arrogant and thinks one can easily do things, makes the one sometimes too lazy. When should be time to study it makes the arrogant to do nothing and the other one will try bit more... Or at least I think so....

-Vierna....-[little shadow of the autumn wind]

pLayinG aRounD...:]

Yesh....it is in the middle of the night, I feel very sleepy and tired and still I just can't sleep :( -so I'm playing around and writing. ;D

Still can't remember something I really should, forgot to check it from my 'real' or 'main' computer. But oh well...maybe I'll remember it eventually anyways :)

Sun rises

moon rises

it is the cycle of life.

Hell, yeah..

I'm no poet,

But my heart is pure an' true

It speaks the words of its own

and whispers them to the wind.

The wind takes them to you,

you who wants to hear them..

If no one is there to hear my words

it makes 'dead letters' I've heard.

Something sent

but never received.

And yeh, that one is one bad! poem, but tbh I don't care :D

I guess if I read this in the morning I'll be completely like, 'what I've been eating to write something like this' -or that ;D

Have to try if i remembered the thing I was trying to remember...have to remember it at some point...or I just end up checking it from the other computer...

Oh yeah! Bought a macBook a week ago... It is so lovely and nice <3>

Tho I hate it 'cause there is some really old games I like to play sometimes but 'cause this is mac I won't be abel to instal them :(

...and sadly but true perhaps, piracy maybe the easiest way to get them work in the macBook if I really wanna play them with macBook :( -even if I have completely legal bought copies of the games :[...

Yeah... But other than that I luv my new macBook..tho i guess it will take me some time to get used to all these mac's own things :D

School starts next week. Last autumn was really nice but not waiting for spring so much... Maybe 'cause even if autumn was really nice and all it was really hard time. Lots of school stuff and all and then.. Well my bf is at his army service now. So I only see him during weekends no weeks. And we live together... So I basically had to learn to live alone. And I have to say that living alone in long periods isn't so good or fitting for me..

So... I don't wait spring so much 'cause I fear how hard it will be. Bf gets out of the army at summer so it will be other 6 months with no seeing him that much. With lots of school stuff. Homestuff...and ofc, everything else around, between and far away... :(

So. No. I'm not waiting for spring even tho I know when spring is over comes summer and then it will be all much better again :)

haaaufhg..

Oh..it came out longly, but it is okay I guess... Or it is okay till the next morning when I read it again..

-Vierna-........[your little odd creature, and not meaning you, but *you* ;)]

Christmas :)

Merry Christmas! :)

Found this poem when I read my old non posted and posted poems. I like it, tho I like all my poems..so anyways..

Timeless day

When comes the day
with no tomorrow?
When comes the day
with no yesterday?

Day without time.

That day would be heaven for me,
'cause I wouldn't have to worry about tomorrows
nor yesterdays.

I could do anything I want,
time wouldn't stop me doing those things.

But what would I do.
I don't know,
but it wouldn't matter
'cause I would have all the time in the world.

Long time since I wrote here last time. Lots has changed and lot is still the same. Sometimes it feels like the whole world around me moves but I am the only thing staying still, untouched...the only thing remaining the same all the time... Like I am left behind to the past..

Meeh.. :P..

Oh well.. It is holidays now, at last some time to get some rest. Really happy about it :)

-Vierna-....[the mummy ;)]

Long time...

Long time... It could be a year or two when it is actually 4 days. 358 left and those 4 feels like 100 times more than just 4 :(

Why?

Ye, meh knows it feels longer when you wait something to happen but still... It is way too long..

-Vierna ...[feels bit lonely :(]

..and now I'm just posting and can't still write any poems or anything...that's kinda sad u' know :/

Odd....

Do you know that odd feeling when you think about something (a question or so) and the answer just pops into your mind...completely out of nowhere.. and normally (after re-check) it is the right one... or almost the right one..

I was filling this application and then there was question about my average grade..I started to look for my last school report when this number pops into my mind. I somehow know it is the right number but I have to be sure. I have to find the paper to calculate the right number... after few minutes search I find it and calculate the number... The number which had popped to my mind was wrong...it was wrong being 0.01 bigger than the real one..which I think was just some rounding difference...Then again it was just 'one' of possible average grades..there is so many ways to calculate it and I just have to find out which is the right one now...

This wasn't the first time...or the last I think. Human mind is confusing and who knows how it works..

-Vierna- ....[meeh is the evil mushruum]

Automatic doors :D

http://www.xkcd.com/175/ . . .

haven't tought about it earlier..I mean that automatic doors could be sad if you didn't go in when they are so kind and open for you... ^^
Cute idea I think :)....I mean...Automatic doors even move...hmm :D

-Vierna-..........[pink teddybear <3]