Odd....

Do you know that odd feeling when you think about something (a question or so) and the answer just pops into your mind...completely out of nowhere.. and normally (after re-check) it is the right one... or almost the right one..

I was filling this application and then there was question about my average grade..I started to look for my last school report when this number pops into my mind. I somehow know it is the right number but I have to be sure. I have to find the paper to calculate the right number... after few minutes search I find it and calculate the number... The number which had popped to my mind was wrong...it was wrong being 0.01 bigger than the real one..which I think was just some rounding difference...Then again it was just 'one' of possible average grades..there is so many ways to calculate it and I just have to find out which is the right one now...

This wasn't the first time...or the last I think. Human mind is confusing and who knows how it works..

-Vierna- ....[meeh is the evil mushruum]

Automatic doors :D

http://www.xkcd.com/175/ . . .

haven't tought about it earlier..I mean that automatic doors could be sad if you didn't go in when they are so kind and open for you... ^^
Cute idea I think :)....I mean...Automatic doors even move...hmm :D

-Vierna-..........[pink teddybear <3]

Home again <3

It is so lovely to be here again :)....Okay it was a nice week but it isn't the same ^^....Bought too much stuff and ate too much...hmmm...no I didn't eat too much. Holidays abroad are fun but it is good to be at home too. Do your normal things and stuff like that :).... And hear languages you can understand...:D



http://www.lfgcomic.com/page/173 - isn't it lovely? <3....Richard and his wabbit :)



But yeesh...long time since the last post... It will be seen if next post cames sooner :D



-Vierna-..............[it ain't over yet!...ummm what?....I dunno :D...........bu I know...summer ain't over yet!!!]

Gooooooood mooorni-i-ng-g...:)

I have been so tired that I haven't managed to make this post until now...This all happened on a lovely Tuesday...(13.5.2008..) -[which is btw my best friend's birthday]

In the morning everything seemed quite normal. I was tired...Then I went to work..as I have done for "couple" of weeks now...Then I was doing something...umm...Anyway..when someone shouted: 'Hey! Come, let's go and see what's going on over there!' ..I looked into the sky. Part of it was covered with something black..'Wow! A thunderstorm!' was my first thought...Then I realised it was really a pillar of smoke!
...We went to watch what was making the smoke. There were a car burning. And it wasn't just a little camp fire -flames were all over it -and they were high...The backs of the nearest cars were also on fire...
...Then firefighters came and the episode was quickly over.
...After work I went to see what was left of the car...There weren't much left. Just some pieces of supporting structure...those metal ones of course...

It wasn't something one see everyday...so I decided to write about it... ^^

-Vierna-....[Never say never...but I just said never :)]

Odd feeligs ay..aye...:).....(yesh again ^^)

Resently everything have been so...so..odd. I mean everything is changing. Future is more open than ever. I can do (almost) what ever I want with it. Somehow everything in my past have someway somehow been so clear. Okay, I just go there and do things as I have done them....but now it is so different. Have to do big decisions. And I hate making any decisions. It is so difficult for me sometimes.

Ye...Everybody keeps saying: "It is not ...ummm...bad (best word for what I mean ^^..I think) if I now decide something and then after few years change my mind"...But I disagree...Is it so simple to change your mind and just do something else? Okay. Maybe it is....But I mean really..Is it?
....>.< ...Fighting with me again..(I mean I'm fighting with me :])

Okay...And then a poem. Suitable for my confused feelings :)....

A shade of a spirit

Am I really here?
Don't know the answer
because sometimes everything feels so unreal,
like a dream.

Am I just sleeping then?
Having a beautiful dream
while my real life is like nightmare.

Who could save me from my nightmares?
Wake me up
and save me from this eternal torturing.

I would like to wake up.
I would like to see my nightmares go away.
But I know it is impossible
because I am just a shade of a spirit with burning wings.

-Vierna-....[yesh...still here...still :)...and sorry about my bad English :/]

"==( - :P___ (meaning 2008 ^^)

Oh! It is really year 2008. It could be just year 2007. Everything would be different then. We all would be a year younger and all. It could be funny if I had a change to go back in time. Like a year - then I would know all this stuff I know now. Would I have done things differently? -mu- Okay. That isn't a real question because no one can know the answer - and I hate that kinds of questions because history can't be changed :P

Okay that part was nothing. I am just shocked because it is year 2008 not 2007. Time flies ^^

I read my old poems and found this. It is kinda nice. Okay I like all of my poems - even if they were odder than odd :). [haven't been too poemish lately (poemish - I mean the feeling when you write poems - it is not like I'll write a poem. It is a feeling ^^ -it probably isn't even a word ^^ ) ]

We are not here

What means it.
"We are here"
What means it.
How we even can know where we are.

If all this is just a big lie.
If all this is just a big illusion.

How we even can know what means the word "truth"
or "lie".
How we can know anything.

Is it just child's pure trust
when we believe that the sky is blue?
Or anything that we keep certain.

I don't believe we are here
'cause then we would be just flesh and bones.
We are in some place else
our souls are in some place else.

But sometimes we really are here.
Those moments are moments of our heart
when our heart and soul becomes one.

-Vierna-........[I'm not here ^^]

Jup...:p...I mean Yup...YUp-yUP..puP..:)

Long time....Yes. It is because time flies sometimes so fast. It is almost Christmas already. It is quite odd... :)...and last 8 :) months have been fun..so it is quite logical they have gone fast....but still..This fast..It feels odd. Then it is spring and we write our final exams...And then we all have to decide what we will become when we grow up. When we are big adults and do real things and have real jobs and earn real money - of course :P...

And I have changed so much during the year...during the past 2 and ½ years too...I feel so much older than back then...I mean 2½ years ago. It is odd. I think life is odd so I think I think all things are odd in some way...Odd way to think :) - I think :p...Funny thing to say...Yup..(np:Children of Bodom - Somebody Put Something In My Drink) I wouldn't have liked that song 8 months ago but now I really like it....:)

Okay. This poem is different from the previous ones..So I don't know is it even a proper one...but once again I kinda like it...So I put it here..You don't have to read it..Put here it is if you want do so..Feel like it or something :)

Time flies

Time flies when you have fun.
It makes you heart fly
it makes you feel light and good.

You feel you can do anything
just because you feel so.

Your heart pounds
it beats so hard
and you feel so warm.

Like nothing could ever hurt you again.
Like there weren't bad things at all
like all bad things would just be a really bad dream.

You can just be.
Forget all the bad things.

Feel the softness around you.
Feel the love around you.
And you can just be within it.
Feeling it, loving it....and being there in it.
In the warm place we all have deep in our hearts.

-Vierna-...........[All things are odd...so we all are odd too :) ]