Odd feelings...Ay?... *frog [not grudge]*

It feels so....so..ah - not good when you don't know what to think about something. It feels so odd - and twisting. And then I just once again wrote something. A poem like thing.
I don't' even have proper reason to this writing. I just like it. Writing I mean. I wrote a poem just I said. Then I wrote an other one. The first paragraph is same but all other paragraphs are totally different. The second one is more like what kind of poem I wanted to write but then I just felt like writing something totally different. So here are my two poems. Have fun with them. I had. ^^ [or something]

My dark room

Sometimes I feel so lost
so lost I barely know my name.

And it hurts
it hurts like stabbed time and again.

Then I'm once again in my dark room
finding no way out.

Praying the Angel of death to save me from my nightmares
but it won't save me.

Because there isn't heaven to me
nor hell either.

My dark room is my life
my world
and my destiny.



And the second one:

Destiny

Sometimes I feel so lost
so lost I barely know my name.

I'm lost in the shadows
losing a part of myself every second.

And in the end there is nothing left of me.
I just disappear from the Earth.
- leaving things just like I never have even lived.

It is my destiny
but I'm not sorry because of it.
I'm happy of it
because then I wont' hurt anyone.

-Vierna-..........[Do you know what is the fastest way to die? *frog*]

^_^

This is very stupid blogging system. It doesn't show my newest posts...It will be seen does it show this one..

-Vierna-

Waiting... >.<

It is funny when you wait something to happen the only thing you can properly think is that what you are waiting for. You watch a clock hundreds and hundreds of times. You think how many hours you still have to wait before the time comes and the thing you have been waiting for so desperately comes true. And then all the time and waiting feels so..so meaningless and then you almost feel yourself stupid because you felt so awful when you just have to wait. And you are so happy that no one in this world could be happier...or so it feels like.

-Vierna-

proper writing?...Ay?

Yup! It is a long time since I last time wrote here....Anyway. That wasn't the point...or actually it was. I just haven't got anything smart to say. [ay...I don't have anything smart to say,ay?]...Ay is almost like yup..Fun to say and write...But now it is summer and I like it because it is holiday...otherwise I prefer autumn. [I love it when leaves are orange, yellow and other wonderful colors ^^]...yes...and I noticed just a minute ago that I can't write properly...[I don't mean I once could have written properly..or something]

-Vierna-...........[writer who can't write properly...or so he says ^^]