So....again...Yup!....:)

So. Yesterday I had that test. I didn't like it. It was difficult and there weren't enough time to do it :S...or I was just so stupid I couldn't do it faster. :( And now I just can wait what grade I will get. I can't do anything more for it. Aaargh! :S...Still so nervous..when I just think about that test :S...What if I fail? What if I don't pass the test?...Am I a loser?...Am I just very stupid? - Or does it even change me? Does it?...(yes, I know stupid questions but when you are enough nervous you (or at least I) think very odd things.

Okay...I don't know if I really want to put this poem here or not [I just thought that in the end I would put it anyway - so why not today]. I kinda like it but it is different and...Okay...I just wrote it (like all of my poems) so please don't read it too closely ^^.

The power of love

The power of love is the one that moves me
it makes me live day after day.

The power of love makes me strong
it makes me happy
but it also makes me vulnerable.

It is so because
I can't stand sadness in your eyes
I can't stand anger in your heart.

And day after day I keep hoping
that I haven't hurt you
that I haven't make you angry.

Those feelings are so strong
and they make me confused.
And that is why I don't know what to think
but one thing is certain;
I will love you forever.

-Vierna- [please don't' kill me...or actually who cares ;) - in the end one have to die only once ^^ ]

Aaaaaargh :S

I have an important test tomorrow so I'm quite nervous about it. I should go sleep early but I don't know can I sleep if I am too nervous. I don't know. My mum said it doesn't matter if I got an A if I pass the test. But it matters to me and I'm nervous. Okay, in the other hand I have to admit it was a relief to realize it is more likely that I pass the test than I got I and I don't pass it :) (like 5% or something gets I) - [don't know is it true that it is like that...]
I would be very happy if I got C. M would be something I just dream about. What comes to E and L I can't ever even imagine I could be so good at English I could get such a good grade ^^. So I'm quite happy after all because I just want to pass the exam [<- okay, its a lie but I have to believe it to be calmer :) ] {<- in some ways its true but in the end I won't be completely happy if I got just A - B is completely different thing :) }

I'm so nervous that my mind doesn't float freely around like it normally does...[it means I can't write poems :( ]

-Vierna- [long time no see :) - happy to see you again :) ] - {please laugh at me if you want - at least you live longer :) }